I have bad luck…
FIRST of all…all of my friends that say they will help me find a boyfriend…get distracted with their own….and don’t do a thing. *sigh*
SECOND. How in the hell do I keep liking guys that are so damn popular? I don’t even mean to!! It’s not my fault that I’m always attracted to the hotties of the school! I don’t even REALIZE they are supposed to be some super attractive guy…I just think they’re cute…Then…I start to think about them more..and try to find more about them. I don’t just like them for their looks. I’m sure more than half of the girls that “like” these guys just think they’re hot. SHALLOW PEOPLE.
Anyway….So there’s this guy I like at my school. His name is Justin, and well…to sum up his looks in a few words. TAYLOR LAUTNER. *coughs* Yes. He caught my eye. VERY quickly. But I’ll let you know…I’m not the kind of person to just STARE at someone, and think about them because they’re hot. That’s not the kind of person I am. I’m actually interested in what they do. *sigh*
Is it too much to ask for? I just want a guy who likes me for me…but it doesn’t seem like it will ever happen…and I’m going to have to do all of the work to just get some guy to ASK ME OUT. Hell. No. I’d have to ask them.
baaaaaaaaaaah.
So…I made a promise to myself this year to actually talk to the guy I like. It’s my senior year in high school…if I don’t do it this time…I will seriously hate myself. I need to get over my shyness and self esteem issues and SPEAK UP. DAMN IT.
I found out from my friend that apparently Justin is super loved in his church and has girls wanting him left and right. Just my luck. This always happens to me. He’s also super shy so I’m most likely going to have to take initiative if I want this to go anywhere.
ugh.
Wish me luck?!
